New Baby!!

I've known my dear friend Hanna since Sophmore year in high school. I'd just moved here at the time. Anyway, been friends ever since then.

Well, Hanna and her sweet husband Ben, just had a baby and I couldn't be more happy for them! I was shocked at how Hanna was up and roaming around one day after just having a C section, congrats again to you both! We can't wait to watch baby Evalyn grow into a beautiful lady! Love you!

In dire need of a vacay

I need a vacation. This is not up for debate, plain and simple.

I want to take my kids to somewhere, that the weather is oppsoite of what I live in now. Which, is 40 degrees, rain, wind and ice at nights. I don't want to have to go too far, as my son hasn't ever flown and I'm not so sure how that will go trying to keep a 2yr old still.

Ideas?

In 5 years...

I have many dreams/goals/ambitious things I'd like to do, call me crazy but I really want to:

-Obviously settle down PERMANENTLY. Not that the past years wasn't permanent, just didn't go as I had planned...*cricket cricket*

-1 more kid, I love children!Leena is BEGGING me for a sister, I keep telling her to bug her Dad, but that's not working so well. She wants ME to give her a sister, not her dad. Go figure!

-Get licensed in Real Estate and Dental Assisting, or one or the other.

-Flip a home. I see so many houses that could be total diamonds if they had a few things done. ALWAYS wanted to try my hand at least one property. I figure if I try it once, I can say I did it!

-If I can manage, get a Bachelors in alcohol/drug addiction & substance abuse counseling. Now THAT is ambitious.

-Take up newborn photography/Budoir Photography, being behind the lens and making people look stunning just is super appealing to me. Not to mention give women some confidence in their bodies, I always feel bad when someoneI know, looks totally good for their age or after having kids, and they sit and bas themselves. May help with confidence =)

-Build my own home, complete with a photo studio and a stained glass studio. Ok, I think those will come WAY later, but I guess I can dream on for now, haha. If not room for once, at least a space where I can put my camera stuff and I'll be happy =)

But for now, I'll keep on dreaming until things calm down a bit.

Thanks for the memories, Jeff!

This breaks my heart to write this one, but I feel it needs to be done as well as it will be therapeutic for me in the long run. My family knows of this, and I'm tired of having to hide it from people as it seems more people know/piece it together than I would care to admit. With that said...

A little over a month ago, I got a phone call from a local attorney, notifing me that a dissolution of marriage would be filed the next day. I'd been half way dreading that call.

Needless to say, it was filed Dec 1st in the Washington State Superior Court in Pierce County.

Thanks Jeff for the past 3.5yrs, you've been an AMAZING father and good friend. I owe you for life, as our son is the most precious thing to me. (and Leena too)

I'm sure you're puzzled if you're reading this, we had different goals, occasionally parented differently, and different beliefs. No cheating, no arguing, noting bad, just 2 people, who grew apart, but are excited and eager to remain dear friends.

I think the hardest part is over, keeping schedules and remaining close and within a reasonable distance shouldn't be hard. We're eager to co-parent together with Landon and Leena, as Jeff's been Leena's father figure for almost 4 years now.


Just little things, I wasn't ready to buy our house so fast, I felt I was pushed into it a tad. During the process, Jeff was in FL for work for 6 weeks. I commuted daily to meet brokers, attorneys, to make sure everything was signed etc. The WHOLE home buying process, from a paperwork stand point, I did myself, alone. With a newborn. The amount of stress was tremendous. Jeff came home to a clean, painted and assembled home, that I'd put together myself, and had to rely on everyone but him to aid me in the process. I think that's the starting point of where things weren't working. I relied on everyone but him and wasn't happy about doing everything by myself etc. If that makes sense?

Anyway, Jeff will stay super close, come home and have dinner with us after work, and help put kids to bed, there is ZERO change for them, that's the nice part. The only catch will come in April of next year when he is due to move, then that's when chaos starts. But, for now....we will manage :)




Regardless of differences, big or small, I'll always love that guy, he's not once done anything wrong to me or ever harmed me or my kids in anyway, in fact. He's a GREAT guy. Love ya Jeffy!


Excuse me, I need kleenex.

This so made me cry

I've been a Oprah junkie for a long time, I love her. She has a variety of people on her show, a few days back, she had Marie Osmond. Her son jumped to his death last February, after talking about her 18yr old son, Michael, she sang this, and holy cow.

http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/Marie-Performs-Pie-Jesu-For-Her-Son-Michael-Video_2

Please pass the salad

So I recently decided, I hate touching raw meat is no picnic for me. I wear gloves and think it is an evil task.

With that said, I figured, ya know, I'm not one to eat it, sometimes it just doesn't taste good to me.

I'm officially a non meat eater. Don't call me a vegetarian because that does something in my head that makes me need chicken. But, you can happily call me a fruit and vegetable enthusiast!!

I don't go out of my way to eat "vegetarian" labels. I just cut out the meat.

I think its fun to see what I can come up with. I've had fun. Now, if only Jeff was in the same boat....

Seasons

I feel very alone on this topic. But, every year as the leaves change, and when school starts for kids, my
world seems to take a detour of some amount.

It's official. I don't like it.

So many goals and chances to do so many important-to-me things, always get put on hold.

We grow up with being told to dream big, reach for the stars, and that I'd we put our mind to it, we can accomplish anything.

I beg to differ. Karma and life stop goals from being achieved. Which, when you're putting a big effort for one thing, it can be rather discouraging.

Finding motivation is slow. So can be with achieving goals.

Looks like my patience is being tested.

More to come in January about a few things.