Thanks for the memories, Jeff!

This breaks my heart to write this one, but I feel it needs to be done as well as it will be therapeutic for me in the long run. My family knows of this, and I'm tired of having to hide it from people as it seems more people know/piece it together than I would care to admit. With that said...

A little over a month ago, I got a phone call from a local attorney, notifing me that a dissolution of marriage would be filed the next day. I'd been half way dreading that call.

Needless to say, it was filed Dec 1st in the Washington State Superior Court in Pierce County.

Thanks Jeff for the past 3.5yrs, you've been an AMAZING father and good friend. I owe you for life, as our son is the most precious thing to me. (and Leena too)

I'm sure you're puzzled if you're reading this, we had different goals, occasionally parented differently, and different beliefs. No cheating, no arguing, noting bad, just 2 people, who grew apart, but are excited and eager to remain dear friends.

I think the hardest part is over, keeping schedules and remaining close and within a reasonable distance shouldn't be hard. We're eager to co-parent together with Landon and Leena, as Jeff's been Leena's father figure for almost 4 years now.


Just little things, I wasn't ready to buy our house so fast, I felt I was pushed into it a tad. During the process, Jeff was in FL for work for 6 weeks. I commuted daily to meet brokers, attorneys, to make sure everything was signed etc. The WHOLE home buying process, from a paperwork stand point, I did myself, alone. With a newborn. The amount of stress was tremendous. Jeff came home to a clean, painted and assembled home, that I'd put together myself, and had to rely on everyone but him to aid me in the process. I think that's the starting point of where things weren't working. I relied on everyone but him and wasn't happy about doing everything by myself etc. If that makes sense?

Anyway, Jeff will stay super close, come home and have dinner with us after work, and help put kids to bed, there is ZERO change for them, that's the nice part. The only catch will come in April of next year when he is due to move, then that's when chaos starts. But, for now....we will manage :)




Regardless of differences, big or small, I'll always love that guy, he's not once done anything wrong to me or ever harmed me or my kids in anyway, in fact. He's a GREAT guy. Love ya Jeffy!


Excuse me, I need kleenex.

This so made me cry

I've been a Oprah junkie for a long time, I love her. She has a variety of people on her show, a few days back, she had Marie Osmond. Her son jumped to his death last February, after talking about her 18yr old son, Michael, she sang this, and holy cow.

http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/Marie-Performs-Pie-Jesu-For-Her-Son-Michael-Video_2

Please pass the salad

So I recently decided, I hate touching raw meat is no picnic for me. I wear gloves and think it is an evil task.

With that said, I figured, ya know, I'm not one to eat it, sometimes it just doesn't taste good to me.

I'm officially a non meat eater. Don't call me a vegetarian because that does something in my head that makes me need chicken. But, you can happily call me a fruit and vegetable enthusiast!!

I don't go out of my way to eat "vegetarian" labels. I just cut out the meat.

I think its fun to see what I can come up with. I've had fun. Now, if only Jeff was in the same boat....

Seasons

I feel very alone on this topic. But, every year as the leaves change, and when school starts for kids, my
world seems to take a detour of some amount.

It's official. I don't like it.

So many goals and chances to do so many important-to-me things, always get put on hold.

We grow up with being told to dream big, reach for the stars, and that I'd we put our mind to it, we can accomplish anything.

I beg to differ. Karma and life stop goals from being achieved. Which, when you're putting a big effort for one thing, it can be rather discouraging.

Finding motivation is slow. So can be with achieving goals.

Looks like my patience is being tested.

More to come in January about a few things.

She's totally right.

I was online the other day, and saw a post that my cousin (dad's side) Katie posted, it reads:

"There is too much hate. I wish that people realized that, regardless of their own beliefs, it is not okay to be hateful and down-right mean. EVERYONE is supposed to love EVERYONE."

How RIGHT she is!! I read that, and was in total agreement with her. I am honestly ashamed to say this, but I personally don't know Katie too well. I know she's an Elledge who looks like a spitting image of a girl version of her dad, who I love. He's SOOO much like my Dad. But, our sides of the family haven't met up in 20 years or so. But, I know this, she's right, and I think more people needs to ease up. This was also on her same post, which is even more true to the T.

"Especially with regards to the resurrected Prop 8 issue, I believe both sides are at fault for blowing the issue up, and causing so much turmoil. I find it sad that so many people who claim to follow Christ are so quick to find fault with gay people just for being gay - that is not the issue at hand. I also find it quite upsetting that so many supporters of gay rights, gay marriage in particular, are just as quick to judge and condemn Christian people for voicing what they believe to be true. It goes both ways."

It's all a finger pointing game! She is dead on. I get equal rights and so on, but...there's something to be said for hate.

You hear about hate crimes, about a latino in Pennsylvania being brutally assaulted until his death, because he was latin AMERICAN. He was a US Citizen, born in the country. But because is name was of his heritage, he was beaten to death. Two white teenage males are currently serving heavy sentences in a federal prison.

Hate itself, is wrong on so many levels, especially on the human one. Hating broccoli, totally fine. Hating because someone is born abroad, and comes to the US for a better life, and have a different hue of color to their skin., or an accent..Just hand yourself a ticket to hell.

I get the people that hate the person who are responsile for a loved ones death, but even then, you see people in that situation, who opt to forgive. Be the bigger person.

We live in a world full of hate, fighting, threats...it's everywhere. It is never ending it seems, but doesn't mean we're required, to take apart in it.

Good job Katie. I may not know you as well as some of my other cousins, but I do know, that is a dang good point and I applaud you for sharing it with me :)

2, the new 4.

As Landons big 2nd birthday sneaks up on us rather quick. Holy COW!!!

We're currently experiencing, tantrums, refusal of naps, alot of screaming/yelling, no desire to potty train, and alot of "NO NO!"'s.

I'm not a fan.

I went to change an un pleasant diaper he offered me today, instead of letting me pick him up and walk him to where I was going to change him, he runs away from me. I then get him to hold my finger, for a milisecond. He then throws my hand, walks over to the carper, screams, cries and has an absolute hissy fit.

I WILL NEVER MISS TANTRUMS!

Dear 2 years old, hurry up, come and go and let my boy be!

Hello, Dory.

Do you ever have a "Dory" moment, when all you can blurt out is, "I suffer from short term memory loss". And then you get the glare, of "are ya freakin' serious??", and you space all the time. Hmm, I suddenly have an urge to watch Finding Nemo!

That's when it occures to me, I need a vacation.

With that said, I haven't been on a super vacation in quite some time. I think for my 30th, I'll go to Hawaii, no really, Jeff cleared me too. I think I'll take my kids too. I'd wanted to go to Bermuda, but to fly 3 people there, is ridiculous in the middle of summer. We can go to Hawaii for half the cost, so, that we shall do, and enjoy.

The total irony of this, I had a tangent to go on about spacing out...and I crap you not.


I FORGOT WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY!!!

Oh wait, I remember now! HAHA!

My new lines this month, are: "It's ok, I have socks on!" and, "Bananas, what joy!" Just for the sheer amusement, of people staring at me.

If you can't laugh at life, you are doomed. Seriously.

Starting this month, I shall have random quotes to use when there is an awkward moment. Next month shall be revealed in a few weeks. Please, suggestions are open as I'm drawing a blank....or a sleigh.